pick one!

as I sat beside the most gorgeous sleeping creature I’ve ever seen in my life, my husband, I looked at him with great awe but with mixed emotions. I asked myself, “what have I been doing lately? why have I not had enough time to attend to all his needs? he always had to worry what to eat for dinner because no one cooks for him, but didn’t i vow to be his helping hand at all times? why does it seem that i barely have time to take care of him? am i too obsessed with my own career now that i'm slowly taking him for granted?”

the stone of realization just hit me right on the head.  

now i’m thinking, do i really want to work or i’m just too afraid to lose my means of having my own money? because come to think of it, if i would stop working now and just choose to become a plain housewife, then i would no longer have the means to buy myself those things that i have always wanted without having the need to explain. i mean, i’ve been depriving myself of that much desired luxury ever since I started working and now that i can already give myself the freedom to splurge on things that I have always sought after in the past, i need to give it up to become a better wife? i know he will give me money if i ask him but there will always be “that” need to explain, those awkward thoughts, and really, it’s just gonna be so weird and unusual and uneasy for me. don't get me wrong, he's generous and i know how much he loves me. it's just that, i'm not used to being so weak financially. i've been working for five years already, so it wouldn't be that easy for me to rest and be without my own income to survive. sigh (looking at him again). but as I’m typing this, I know that giving up my own selfish demands and guilty pleasures will all be worth it if it means seeing this handsome and seriously HOT guy right here happy and well satisfied every day.

hmmm…  the year is nearly over, so I guess I’ll just have to wait for the coming year and then decide which way to go. i love my job or at least I thought I do, but I’m 101% sure that I love my husband. so I’ll see next year how to best end this eenie-meenie-miney-mo thingy in my head.

goodnight y’all!

WHAT IF THERE WERE NO MIRRORS?

I really wonder how we, girls are gonna fix ourselves if there were no mirrors at all. What made me ask? Well… this morning, my hubby was so amazed while watching me put on my makeup, which by the way is already my tradition as I do it every day before going to work. And that thought about mirrors just came to me. And oh, why didn’t I include boys? Probably because they just don’t seem to care so much how they look like. I mean, sometimes. I mean, only those I that know of. Haha (I really had to insert a lot of disclaimer there).

So yeah, did it ever occur to you how we could have succeeded a day without even seeing our reflection on a mirror, whether it’s a full-sized, half-sized or even just a pocket-sized mirror? And that nothing else on this planet could ever make a reflection of us? I mean, even water would not mirror us. Wouldn’t it leave us with no other choice but to ask other people about our appearance? As in other people would serve as mirrors!

Wouldn’t that be so frustrating and annoying and aggravating and everything else?!!

I mean, if we don’t get to see or judge how we look like, and only those who can see us will get to say that we look okay or worse can even fake it, then I think we’re in serious trouble. Why? Well, they could pretentiously say we already look nice when it’s the opposite or say we look hideous when we look just fine or even seductively gorgeous. If only other people will get to see our appearance then it’s like giving them 100% right to comment if the dress we picked for the day matches the belt we chose and if the shoes that we decided to wear complements the whole attire. Ya get what I mean?! They will have that bragging rights to tell us how we should dress up, tie our hair or how to put on our makeup. On second thought, I don’t think we, girls, could ever wear makeup at all if that would be the case, right?

Whoa! If that will ever happen, I’m pretty much sure it’ll be one hell of a mess! Because accept it or not, we tend to lie every day – I’m just referring to “white lies”. So, if it’s not in your nature to be frank and you’ve been asked by your friend to tell her exactly how that pretty red dress, which she adores so much (but doesn’t really fit her nicely) fits her, would you really be honest about it or would you try some positive scripting, which by the way might (as it happens most of the times) lead her to believing the opposite of what you’re really trying to tell her? And by not telling her that it doesn't fit her well, it's already lying! But by telling her, you might end up hurting her! Oh yeah, I’m again trying to complicate things here, haha. Sorry.

Can I just say that I’m thankful that we have mirrors? That it’s so nice to be able to see our reflection before we even go out of the house and face the world? That I’m glad I don’t have to really answer someone else's question on how they look like, instead I can just lend them my mirror? Easy and simple and will save me from lots of trouble… Hahaha!

So that's all I have to say for now. See yah again soon.

p.s. sorry for my nonsense post. just really trying to unload my mind of all the junks it has for the past few days.

p.p.s. my iphone 3Gs was stolen last Saturday, 5^th Nov at QUANTUM in SM Batangas. made very sad. (...that’s why iphone 4S was given birth =D).

What have I been doin' lately?

just this past couple of days, i've been obsessed with room tour videos on youtube. makes me want to organize our room right away. i'm also getting lots of ideas about different bedroom interior designs. very nice! quite helpful for my job as a designer.

i'm on my way to work now and yah im kind of late already. blame it to my lazy body and our bed that kept pulling me back everytime i wanna get up, LOL.

i have some thoughts about quite a few topics to share here but not now as i prefer to type it on my laptop instead of here (my iphone). 

so yeah, that'll be it for now. see yah later.