Late Honeymoon?

with no real intentions of writing a review about the place where we’ve just been last week, I’m back here to tell you the details of our romantic and fun 3D2N stay at Nirwana Resort Hotel in Bintan Indonesia.

let’s just look back a little. my hubby and I both filed a leave from 15-16 Sep (Thursday-Friday) with the expectation that we’ll have thurs-sun to ourselves exclusively. unfortunately, he was given such a cruel time in his office and so the supposedly 3D2N vacation in Phuket Thailand that we looked forward to for so long just vanished in an instant, just like that. but since, we didn’t want to waste our leave from work, my hubby, (the planner-freak that he is), still looked for ways how we can unwind and be out of reach for at least a day and half (even if the promo says 2D1N). I haven’t told you yet but last time when we went to Bintan, we told ourselves that we will come back to explore the place more and so yeah we did! hubby booked for a 2D1N stay in a… wait for it… HOTEL SUITE! yeah. it’s a first. isn’t that sweet?

and so… with no clear itinerary on hand, there we were at Tana Merah Ferry Terminal on a Thursday afternoon (almost 1PM) waiting for our ferry to depart. after almost an hour of travel via ferry (they call it “high-speed catamarans”), we were then brought to the hotel by Nirwana Bus (as it has the name Nirwana Gardens spray painted on its side).

as usual, hubby took care of the check in details at the reception area. all I always had to do was wait on the side until things are settled (yeah I was completely useless). when everything’s done, we went directly to our suite, and voila!

after we have taken pictures of the room and everything in it, and fixed our things, we did what we were very well expected to do as a couple who just got married not so long ago (2 months and 29days to be exact). it is ROMANCE at its BEST!

after the romantic activity we just did, we decided to roam around. we went to the beach and swam at the infinity pool until six in the evening. it was by so far the most fun and relaxing things I’ve ever done since 2011 started.

when we went back to our suite, my hubby then saw that we have a voucher for 1 free game of bowling and he loves bowling and I love so much seeing him does the things he likes. we asked the reception where the place to play bowling is (Nirwana Resort Centre), and because we didn’t understand the instructions clearly, we kind of got lost a little bit. the good thing about it though is that we got to see other parts of Nirwana Gardens. we passed by Wildlife Explorer which is some kind of a zoo and even reached Nirwana Beach Club Cabanas, where we finally agreed on asking someone for the direction to the place where we really need to go. we were then given a map and it stated that it should be on the other way. yeah right. it only shows that we really did NOT understand the instructions from the reception. haha.

we did reach the Resort Centre before it closes and we did enjoy a few rounds of bowling.

we went back to our suite very tired and sleepy. my body was a little bit aching which I thought maybe because of walking, swimming and bowling. I dozed off early.

we woke up very refreshed the next day, 16th sep/friday, our 6^th anniv as lovers, our 3^rd month as  a married couple, and our last day there (but wait there’s more! just stay tuned). before we even went down to the coffee shop to claim our free breakfast, we were already talking about extending for one more night but didn’t really make the decision right away. instead we just decided that we’ll go for another swim after our breakfast and then will start packing up by 11.

we did swim and swim again. while at the pool, I was already thinking, “today is the actual day that we’re supposed to celebrate, not yesterday, and yet we have to go back home today?”.

by past 10AM we went back to our suite and started packing up. a miracle happened. we talked again about extending our stay and we finally agreed to really do it. so with no second thoughts, I called the reception and looked for a manager to hasten the process and to avoid the usual i-apologize-for-the-inconvenience-but-we’re-unable-to-blahblahblah. in just a few minutes, the manager I spoke with over the phone was already there in our suite settling the payment matters.

so yeah, it’s 16^th sep – our 6^th anniv / 3^rd month as a married couple, and we’re outstation to unwind, relax and celebrate. how cool was that?!!!!

and when you thought that everything is already perfect, you’ll be surprised if things become even much perfect-er (if only there’s such a word).

I may be able to find the words from my very limited vocabulary to describe the place and the food that we had but there will just be no exact words to describe the very “thing” I felt the moment I saw that seafood resto floating on water facing that insanely majestic and truly magnificent sunset. to behold such beauty is a sign that life, may it be unfair sometimes (or most of the times) still has something spectacular to offer.

that night made all our anniv celebrations in the past look so ordinary. that night made me believe that dreams and fantasies can really come to life (if you’re with the right person). that night made me think and believe that I don’t and did not have any regrets in my life, that I don’t have insecurities, that I am worth all the love and attention this beautiful world has to give. that night made me believe that life itself is beautiful.

after that sumptuous, lovely and romantic dinner at Kelong, we had another round of bowling in the resort centre and I even got the chance to sing in their KTV bar. when we went back to our suite, it was hubby’s turn to doze off early. I still watched Sex and the City on HBO until I fell asleep.

so again, we had our 2^nd free breakfast the next morning and had another swimming session until 11AM. and because we extended for 1 more night, they allowed us to stay in the suite until 2PM (instead of 12PM, the standard CHECK OUT time) as a courtesy, because our ferry sched is at 3:30PM. and just like that, we’re back home.

so yeah! I mean, who’d have thought that I, one day, will deserve to be pampered like that?!

life, though this is already a cliché, really is full of surprises. and God is just so marvelous that He designed life like this – very unpredictable, filled with different kind of mazes and so full of… life! (huh?!). and He is so awesome and great and wonderful for designing my life like this. I’m with the man I never imagined I deserve to have to begin with and yet now here I am, enjoying all the perks of a beautiful life because of him.

that 3D2N stay at Nirwana Resort Hotel (Nirwana Gardens) was indeed the most fun-filled and superbly romantic anniv celebration we’ve ever had. and the joy I felt especially on that special night is just incomparable and remarkably amazing. it’s the awesomest feeling I’ve ever had in my 27 years of existence on this planet and I swear will never forget it…ever.

goodnight message?

define shortcoming.

according to merriam-webster: it is an imperfection or lack that detracts from the whole; also: the quality or state of being flawed or lacking.

spell shortcoming.

S.O.R.R.Y.

sorry baby for all my shortcomings... i'll do my best to make it up with you. just please have more patience with me... i'll work on it, i promise.

what are short nails for?

these:

are for this:

yebah! i got this on 2nd Sep 2011, Friday. it's not brand new but i got a good deal that's why i bought it. and... i really miss playing guitar.

so yeah! ^_^

the reward for losing

how do you accept defeat?

first, you need to make sure that you're in a battle/competition, that you did all you can to win and you strived so hard to get what you deserved. second, you need to know when the fight is over. third, you need to recognize the difference between losing and winning. fourth, after knowing that you’re defeated, u need to take a moment to accept it . and fifth, you need to deal with it. you need to make a choice – either to whine all day and night or be happy despite the pain and grievances it caused you.

why do you need to make a choice? because if you don’t, you’ll be stranded in this journey.

when I was a kid, I was thwarted so many times. during those days, i normally used my remorse to push myself to become better in whatever field where I got defeated. then i’d always return to the battle for revenge. back then, I can’t seem to handle defeat the right way. I can’t seem to just give it up, accept the bitter truth of losing and move on. what i’d been doing before may not really be ideal but I have to admit that it somehow helped me become a stronger person. still, my old ways are not only not ideal, they’re also not advisable and are full of side effects.

so yeah… it doesn’t matter if you’re defeated this time. life doesn’t end when you lose one battle. it’s just getting’ started! so right now, immona pick up the broken pieces of myself and the remnants of my dreams and will try to rebuild them in another world which I’m just about to make.

…and when that world is fully created and successfully finished, I’ll let you all know so you can party with me. ;-)

early morning rant?

it's 8:06AM as of this writing and i have just boarded the train. i woke up as early as 5am and yet here i am again, almost late for work. and when i was on the phone with my hubby just about 10-15 minutes ago, i was just blabbering... tellin' him nonsense stuff. yeah totally nonsense. it's like i woke up at the wrong side of the bed today. and i was just. so so frustrated...lately. sigh.

reason behind: i can't seem to work seriously at home. I know, i know. yeah, i'm really not supposed to work at home but in my profession, working at home is inevitable. and it's the best way, in my opinion, to sharpen my skills. unfortunately, all i have been doing lately when i come home from work (aside from/after spending time with my sweet hubby) is sleep at around 10-10:30pm and wake up whenever my iphone would ring the frickin' alarm at around 3-4am. Sigh. 

i really need to think of a better way to manage my time at home. don't get me wrong. of course i also want to rest, who don't? it's just that i still have a lot of studying and learning to do... it's like i'm running out of time...

that would be all for now. i'm praying right now for wonderful things to happen the moment i reached office. Lord God, please help and guide me today. i love you, Lord.


p.s. i need to call hubby now and apologize. love u, bebe ko...

WALA

the moment he stepped out of the room, tears came rushing down my cheeks… i didn’t wipe ‘em… i just let ‘em all fell and damped my face… as my sight got blurrier by every second, i noticed his gaze… oh my sweet panda… he’s carefully studying my face.. he seemed to pity me… i hugged him… but this time even tighter…

*** *** ***

why do we, girls, keep saying “wala” when something’s really wrong? why do we still have it at the back of our minds that they, boys, will one day comprehend or sense what we feel without having to say it to their faces. we already know that boys will never figure out the complicated thinking of girls but why do we still hope that one day they will? no wonder we end up frustrated… or worse, hurt.

Ø i thought that if there will be one person whom a guy would trust with everything about himself, it’d be his wife whom he also treats as his bestfriend (unless it’s just what the wife thought all along). everything means every thing. past, present and future. yeah, the past shouldn’t matter anymore, but it’s not the content of that past that matters to her. what hurts is that whatever is in that “past”, she doesn’t seem worthy enough of his trust, to know.

· he said he’s slowly opening up… slowly? please define that word, because he’s one of the few persons she knows who is not fond of waiting. and the girl, mind you, has waited for years already. I repeat, years.

· she said, even if they don’t talk about it ever again, the sickening thought of it will remain in her mind. as expected, he really didn’t bother to bring it up again. of course!

Ø she felt so sorry for ruining his plans, especially "that" plan. yeah. it seems she’s really not an expert receiver of surprises. she may know how to surprise others but it really looks like she can’t handle being surprised (no wonder she has a way of spoling ‘em – surprises). it sucks that she can always remember how it all happened and would always shed a tear or two, because of what could’ve happened had she not been provoked to do what she shouldn’t have done. but who’s to blame? she.

Ø happiness is a choice. if it really is just a choice, then the only reason you’re happy is because you CHOSE to be happy. nothing more nothing less. or if you don’t find any more reason to be happy, you have to choose to be happy so you’ll stay happy? SAY WHAT AGAIN???!!!!

as of this writing, my heart is racing again, but this time it’s because i’m so full of it. so full of these unidentified sentiments. this may not necessarily be because of a person but of the things that just happened and things that may keep on happening. SIGH.

“wala” is the conversion of SIGH into words. “wala” summarizes the undefined feelings and jumbled thoughts of a girl who, at her exasperation, can only say one word when she’s at the peak of her emotions. so don’t dare ask me now if something’s bothering me, coz I definitely would say, “WALA”.